Being a Senior in High School, not thinking that it’s cool, just true and a bit cruel to say that today I’m on my Senior Citizen status: I DON’T GIVE A FUCK. I mean, I like going to school because I’m a social creature and the features of being able to talk to my peers because we all share the same fears of the future is fantastic. And I sure do like the learning aspect, despite how erratic our school system and our budget is. But it seems like I’m living life with beer goggles on, but replace beer with nostalgia.
I’m slowly realizing that I’m on the pathway to adulthood, and like an ex KKK member, I’ve decided I don’t want THIS hood anymore. I want to stay in my little high school world I’ve built just a little bit longer. Maybe I need to be a bit stronger. But it gets odder because at the same time I want to leave and feel the relief and be the coveted “On my own” persona. I’m ready to get that diploma and I’m ready to be knocked into a coma to make life just pause.
I’m still a kid to be perfectly honest. My conscious is on this “Life, you should stop it” shit, because I feel like my experience hasn’t been fully polished. They’ll be plenty of living in the future, but I like how I’m living now. I like being a young, idealistic kid pursuing his dreams of Hip Hop. I like being in Drama Productions and doing all the weird ass Drama Kid stuff we do. I like being a Senior at my school. I finally feel cool. I finally feel comfortable. And it sucks that it has to be all taken away when June rolls in.
So with What A Wonderful World echoing in my head, senior-itis dotted along my soul, and a “I don’t give a fuck but I don’t give a fuck about giving a fuck so I guess I do give a fuck” mentality, I’ll be casually enjoying my Seniority in a faculty of majesty.